I really shouldn’t have gotten so emotionally invested in this guy. He doesn’t even know I exist. Sure, he’s probably heard of me, but it’s not like we’ll ever have a proper conversation, or friendship. We’re never even going to be acquaintances. It’s not fair that I do this to myself. I love his smile. I love his eyes. I love the little flicks his hair makes at the front. I love his athleticism, and quirky taste in music. But I hate how I fabricated the entire idea of us even possibly becoming something close to friends. Perhaps I love the idea of him as well. People tell me I should just talk to him but they don’t understand that we’re not even part of the same social circle, and none of his friends are friends with me, or my friends, or vice versa. I wish things were different. I wish this didn’t sound like such a schoolgirl crush. I just wish I didn’t do this to myself. I wish I didn’t love him so much.